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Five (or maybe ten) things to be thankful for today…

31 Jul


July 31, 2013. So many things to be thankful for today:

1. Time at the Great Swamp Wildlife Refuge. I love nature, and I am so glad that I am making time to visit parks and reservations this summer. (Note to self – keep it up in the fall).

2. Modern technology that allows us to communicate with speed and accuracy. Thanks for the phone that always works and available. Send an email, call mom, text my hubby – easy.

3. The unconditional love of my husband. Will always be grateful for that. I can be a complete pain in you-know-what yet he has never made me feel unloved.

4. Great Expectations and Bleak House. Mr. Dickens, you are amazing.

5. Motivation to exercise regardless of whether I am happy or sad. Today I err on the sad side but I hit the gym regardless. Proud of myself.

Let’s see if I can now get to 10 things…

6. Water – fresh, cold, and readily available. There is someone in this world that has to walk for miles to get water. I can do what I please with it – drink, bathe, wash dishes. Or wash my yoga mat. Or my sneakers. Or sprinkle a little on my cats if I’m feeling silly.

7. The pool. I think that speaks for itself 🙂

8. Challenges: the Universe is sending challenges my way so that I learn something from them. And they might not be always pleasant, I grow because of them. I always win the prize – even if that “prize” is experience.

9. Meditation – I can feel my mind calm down and stop racing… Thank you, Deepak Chopra. (His meditations are available for download for free on iTunes).

10. My overall health – so many things to be thankful for in this area… I barely wear any makeup in summer but I looked into the mirror today and my skin is glowing, eyes are clear and body feels strong and supple, thanks to all the physical activity I’ve been doing. Will try to keep it up when fall comes.

And here you have it, folks. It was easier than I thought 🙂

Can you come up with five (or more) things you are thankful for today? I’d love to find out 🙂


GRE Friday… Or is it?

12 Jul

Today I was very ready to go ahead and crack that GRE exam. When I got to the testing center in Clark, I was informed that their system is currently down and we all should reschedule… So we did. My new GRE date is next Tuesday. And although I really wanted to do it and get it over with TODAY, I can see that now I have more opportunities to study. 

I have been up since 6, out of the door by 7:10, at the center by 8… After we found out that it might not work out today, I rescheduled the test, said an affirmation of gratitude and continued with my day by going to yoga in Long Hill… I just had lunch and feel a bit sleepy, however, my husband and I are meeting in New York City today to visit a museum, MOMA to be exact. So, I’d better go preen (GRE word).

Everyone, have an awesome day. 



Opportunities Are Everywhere

12 May

This week I have received my pink slip. Now, before I go any further, I have to say that ALL non-tenured teachers usually receive pink slips and then get hired back. The state of affaires that public schools are in now, it is not surprising.

I have been asking for one. Really. In my mind. The anxiety, the anger, the extreme apathy when going to work has been bothering me. I am creative, resourceful, and fun. But that job has been weighing me down like crazy. And, yes, I know: it’s not what it is, it’s what you make of it. I can’t make anything out it anymore. I want out. And, guess what, I have “out” now. I am a type of person that if she is not happy with something, she looks for ways to change it. You name it: relationships, social ties, jobs, outlooks on life… Additionally, we spend SO much of our lives working, we should at least LIKE our jobs. Forget loving your job (although I am looking for that kind, if you see it, let me know). I like teaching very much but I just don’t like how our school is run. The morale is so low, there is zero collegiality among the staff, the teachers are bitter, the students are miserable, the administrator is quitting, AND there is no money. Ever.

I’m here to bitch about my job. I’m here to make a point – find what you love to do, and then go do it. Every moment of this life is precious, and I don’t want to waste any time. Why focus on something that makes you unhappy when there is photography, travel, connecting with people, bike riding, and woofing. In Switzerland. How cool is that? I have been asking for things. Things. And now I really feel that this pink slip could be turned around and made an opportunity.

I also have been feeling tons of ideas “brewing” inside. Really want to get my photography out there. Have reached out to a couple of online magazines; they seemed interested. Have also been researching a lot – new, curious, fascinating things.

Also, have really been thinking hard about what it really is that I enjoy. And whatever that is, I set time aside to go do it. Reading, I love reading. Before, I used to think: “Oh no, I am reading, I should go do something productive.” So silly. If we don’t do what we enjoy, then what kind of life are we living?

I love reading, writing, listening to music, traveling, biking, photography, and being in nature. So I will make sure that I do these things. Otherwise I won’t be complete.

Put First Things First

18 Feb

This is the fourth week that I am using the Put First Things First worksheet by Covey. All you do is on a Sunday night, during 60 minutes, I review my personal mission statement (which I will probably share with you later), then identify my roles in life (fiance, friend, teacher, student, daughter, world traveller, self-help nut, cat lover, gym-goer, bride, etc.) and number 3 step is to set one or two goals for each role, for that week. Say, for daughter role I put “call Mom” and I actually schedule it. Our relationship with Mom, as many of you know, is a difficult one. And you probably also know that I am notorious for not keeping in touch. For months at a time. This year I promised myself that even if I don’t feel like calling Mom, I will. She lives far and deserves a phone call from me at least once a week. Even if it’s just for 20 minutes.

I also have been consciously allocating time on things that make me happy: reading, catching up with friends, quality time with A., photography, and, my new favorite, reflecting. I would love to try to incorporate being in nature into my week as well. Maybe when it gets warmer.

It has been truly amazing. Talking about what’s important in life! When something goes wrong at work (and it almost always does ;), I turn around and remind myself that I am not just a teacher. I play so many more roles in life that I am VERY successful at. Of course I want things to always be smooth and calm in the classroom but, with teaching, it’s tough.

At the end of the week, when you look at your worksheet and see all the IMPORTANT things that you’ve accomplished, you feel so fulfilled! You really see that you are living your best life – spending time with family, friends, working, studying and doing activities you are passionate about. This worksheet gives your life the necessary balance. I made more than enough copies and I plan on sticking with it for as long as it takes.

Oh Sunday…

9 Oct

I have come to realize that I tend to get Sunday blues. Usually, on a Sunday, around 4PM I feel down, anxious, nervous and dreading the upcoming week. By the time 8PM rolls around I am ok and submit to the inevitanle – next week is starting, whether I like it or not.

Lately I have been having cases of Sunday blue more acutely. When reflecting, I realize that it is because of various factors:

~ my new teaching job at Little Ferry. I am glad that I got out of Carrier, but still my new job is bringing me anxiety. Solution – give it time.

~ a leak in the ceiling. When hurricane Irene hit Jersey, the ceiling in my bedroom have developed a leak. A big leak. I have been going back and forth with the association but with no result. They have promised to fix it but with no defenite dates. THAT is what driving me crazy. Ambiguity.

~ desire to move up to North Jersey, rent an apartment, sell the condo, and quit dealing with our HOA once, and for all.

~ dry skin on my face! All of a sudden. I believe it’s stress-related.

I feel like I should relax and do my best. Always do my best. This way I am never disappointed.

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